September 11th

i slept during the baby's morning nap

i never slept during the day

i woke to 50 missed calls from my husband and messages of panic

i turned the tv on

i thought "this can't be really happening" 

i was shocked

i sat staring at the images

hope for humanity and the future drained from me

it was too close to home  

i held my 6 week old baby in my arms all day long and apologized over and over to him

i watched images of panic

of loss

of grief  

i cried the whole day

with my first born in my arms

a day I will never forget  

a day I wish we never had to forget  

September 11th.  Never forget.